Kathy's Rays of Sunshine - Christian Testimony of a Transformed Life

From Kathy Abrahams, for About.com

After losing her brother to a terrible disease, Kathy began to question why God had not answered her prayers and healed him. She knew that God could have healed him. Depression overcame Kathy in her grief and she even attempted to take her own life. But God mercifully intervened with happiness like rays of sunshine, reminding her that her Heavenly Father was always there for her.

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Kathy's Rays of Sunshine

When my one and only brother, Nick, was diagnosed with dementia at the age of fifty-seven, I experienced feelings of sadness, I prayed to my Heavenly Father, asking him to heal my brother of this terrible disease.

"Please, Heavenly Father, I implore you. Have compassion on my brother. Make him well again."

Prayers for healing went up to heaven, but my brother's condition gradually deteriorated, as is usual with this condition. It seemed that it was not the Lord's will to bring about a restoration of health to Nick.

Sadly, my brother was placed into a nursing home last year. He remained there for about eight months until he passed on almost a year ago at the age of sixty.

Black Depression

A black depressive cloud hung over my head, and I was put on anti-depressants. I experienced some resentment towards my Heavenly Father for not coming to my brother's aid. He could have healed him so easily. Why didn't he? Nick had lived a painful, difficult life.

While in the depths of depression, I made an attempt to take my own life by swallowing eight tablets, which I was told would have killed me if they had been the right type of tablets. I thank God now that they weren't.

During my enforced one-week stay in the psychiatric section of the local hospital, I had time to ponder issues in my life on a deep level. It wasn't up to me to question God about why he hadn't healed my brother. God, in his supreme wisdom, always knows what is best for a person. I know now that God showed compassion for my brother in his illness.

Always There

My self-pitying moods began to vanish as I focused on my Heavenly Father and the love that he has shown me during my life. He has always been there for me whenever I needed Him.

I made a decision then and there: I wanted to become closer to the Lord. I wanted to call him my "Abba Father," my "Daddy God." The best father one could possibly hope for.

Rays of Sunshine

Feelings of happiness like rays of sunshine began to brighten my life again. I have never felt so loved and protected as I do now. I desire to become even closer to the Lord.

He is definitely the center of my universe, and I know that he will always be there from now on. He is a God who loves his children dearly, and wishes the best for them. Hallelujah! Praise the Lord.